In the silence of my thoughts, I think of you

When I close my eyes to pray at nights, I think of you

When I am sad and blue, I think of you

When I am stressed and tired, I think of you

You are a part of my spirit and I can’t get rid of you

At first I hated your presence

It brought me so much pain

Every thought of you brought me to tears

I lost so much of me thinking about you

I really lost me for a while

Sun shiny days are my therapy

Laughter with friends erases bits of you

Being strong and active helped me to recapture my beautiful spirit

I missed me being with you

Once I learned that I could be happy without you

I started choosing me over you every day

I woke up smiling and doing all the things you said I never could

I dreamed of bigger goals and aimed to achieve them with time

I got my happy back

You haven’t left me though and I doubt you ever will

Whenever I become sad or frustrated, your presence appears

You are now my reminder that as bad as things are, they will get better

I have never hated you and never will

You are my motivation

You taught me that life will end but a rebirth always occurs

I became a beautiful radiant butterfly after you

At first my wings didn’t feel right without your push

But I found out that all I needed was the wind to soar

I am happy I lost you; the world needs to be explored

And you my dear, wanted me to crawl